I don't know what this is

Marriage should be a conversation that never ends.

I'm on a plane. Metaphorically speaking. I'm in the air, and I know I'm going somewhere, but I can't feel it. I can't feel the progress or the changes, I just know they're happening. I wonder if that's better or worse than being able to feel it. Would it cause more anxiety? More calm?

I keep alternating between being ok with my life and being unhappy with it. Well, maybe not unhappy, exactly, just...less satisfied than I'd like to be, maybe. It usually stems from a conversation with a friend about where their life is headed, and I just realize that mine is so completely different. And that's not really a bad thing, it's just a thing that makes me examine my life. But what's that saying? An unexamined life isn't worth living? I guess that's true. But I don't like this huge weight that sits on my chest while I'm examining it, so if someone would like to take care of that for me, that'd be great.

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Banana Bread Baking!

So after seeing Super 8 with my friend Jason (great movie, btw) I was in the mood for some good home cookin'. Because in the (whatever decade Super 8 takes place in), they had home cookin'. Of course. SO! I made a plan to bring something in for my coworkers. (I'm such a nice person. HA!) When I got home I noticed I had some bananas that were ripe for some baking! Well, over-ripe. Almost brown. So...perfect! I got my ingredients together, put my pjs on, turned on some tunes, and got to baking. And dancing, of course. Essential for baking.

In the middle of mixing everything up, I got a phone call from my boss. CLOSING THE OFFICE TOMORROW! YAY NO WORK! Great way of starting this holiday weekend, considering my plans for tonight and tomorrow kind of got a little messed up due to lack of traffic and employment opportunities. Damn those good things!

This banana bread is perfect for making you feel comfortable. (Also, being in your pajamas while making it helps.) I've been having some problems lately - work being stressful, boys being dumb, and on top of all that, my phone was acting up! So I decided that this was the perfect thing to make my night better (besides eating ice cream and going to a movie.)

I got the recipe from my friend Ross awhile ago. He had made it and brought it to an improv rehearsal that I so often frequented back in the day, and once I tasted it I knew I needed the recipe. This delicious treat reminds me of Chico friends and good times, which is always something good to remember.

And now, I'm off to watch Mr. And Mrs. Smith and enjoy my delicious peanut butter chocolate chip banana bread! On top of that, I don't even have to share! I guess maybe I shouldn't have passed first grade...

Love is in the Air: The Meaning of Baking a Valentine's Day Cake to Share with the World

Happy Valentine's Day! Let's bake a cake....wait, scratch that. Let's bake some cookies! Oreo cheesecake cookies.

I had decided to bake some cookies last night, I just needed to pick up a few ingredients on my way home. Butter and chocolate chips. Kind of a big deal. SO! I stopped at Target on my way home from work, tried on some clothes (slight detour...whatever!) then made my way over to the grocery section. TARGET IS A GROCERY STORE NOW! WHOA. Found what I was looking for, then headed home.

No one was home, so I blasted the pop music and got down to booty shakin. And choppin up some oreos. Stuck them in my super awesome stand mixer (thanks grandparents!) and waited for them to be all crumb-y. Didn't take long.

Mixed up the cream cheese and butter and sugar and everything else delicious, then got to shaping the cookies. Dipped them in the crumb-like oreos, then put them on the pan! Since I had no helpers, I got to eat the rest of the batter by myself. Not that there was much left, but what was left was quite delicious. It's a good thing I stuck those babies in the oven before I started on the leftovers, otherwise there would quite possibly be none left...

The light was out in my oven, so I couldn't keep watch on them...I accidentally hit it with a baking pan last time I was baking something. WHOOPS! But it was ok, the oven still worked. After I stuck them in the oven I realized I had forgotten to put the red food coloring in! But then I realized I didn't have red food coloring, so these cookies would just have to remain black and white. Peace and love, yo.

Took the cookies out of the oven, but they weren't done! So back in they went for a few minutes. And then...VOILA! They were done. I'll be bringing them somewhere tomorrow, so people will get to eat them then. And they will be delicious. I may or may not have already had one just to make sure they weren't poisoned. I want to eat them all. ALL OF THEM.

Put them on a plate with purple flowers (because that's how I roll) and they're good to go!

Happy Valentine's Day from the porn capital of the world! No diseases this VDay, guys!

xoxo